Temporary

Something's been bugging me lately at the back of my mind...

A teeny lil annoying insect affecting my ways of thinking...and no, it's not my village ppl's fault, they try their BEST to help catch them annoying lil buggers. I SWEAR! Good village people...

I keep thinking about him, what is he feeling, wondering what's he doing, wondering why he says things he doens't mean, says things he would never end up doing in the end, wondering why he never replied...

Is he angry?
Is it my fault? (i'm sorry if it was...)
Does he not care enough?
Will I say "Hi" with a smile if we see each other?
Will he say "Hi" with a smile if we see each other?

or will he ignore me, pretending i'm non-existent? Pretending the past never even existed. I'm probably a stranger to him already. Who knows.

I'm confused...

So many questions of why this? why that?

Questions that will go unanswered. But I still can't help but to wonder. Its just human nature, one of God's ways.

Does he still reads my blog?
[ Does it really matter? I dunno, I guess I like the idea of people reading my blog =) ]

Only God knows.

I want us to have a friendly conversation again like how we did at the mamak long ago.
Go back to the beginning of when we talked alot more. Guess that seems likey to happen...

or will it? (I'm usually an optimistic person)

At times I wish we really could work out. But no, fate wouldn't let i guess.
It's too wrong, it's complicated.

Que sera sera, whatever will be, will be... =)

Not being **emo, but realistic... eventhough I miss him...

= (

It's just temporary.

**actually I don't even like the word emo, sick of that word. It's like some cool in-thing trend now to be emo and look emo. Couldn't care much, couldn't care less.