I won't be so hooked on you for a while
As i'm listening to DRS - Gangsta Lean (it's an R&B slow song, not as hyped hip hop as the title might sound) right now. Feeling really down and angry, and this song really makes me feel like blogging for some funky reason. I guess songs can be my source and inspiration to blog.
I really hate the phone connection between Brunei and here. It sucks. His msgs & calls don't get through all the time. My msges gets through to him but my calls sometimes can't. It's such a hassle.
What happened just now totally pissed me off. It may be a small thing, but i can't help but to get bitchy about it. Scenario here is that i called him (only the 4th time could get through, geez) and we talked lah, then got to a point deciding to talk online for a while before he goes out again to party (he parties every night, why can't i have that kind of parties here?). In terms of call costs, it's about Rm1.50 per minute from me to him, but for him to call me would cost hella lot more...O_o..fuck
So i came online just for him and regretted so badly that i didn't decide to watch "John Tucker Must Die" like i was supposed to that time, coz he wasn't even online! His msn name was there and everything but no reply when i msged. I was almost at the point of cursing the daylights in that convo box, but i refrained knowing that it wouldn't do much good to our relationship. Might as well relieve my stress here, doubt he would even read my blog nowadays. Doesn't really matter.
So i msged him on the phone after 15 mins of silence online telling him how disappointed i was in him for not being online and saying if he went out, shud've at least let me know so i won't be here like an idiot. Few mins later i got a call..when i picked up *silence* on the other end. That's how BAD the connection was people.. SILENCE. So i hung up, few mins later, it rang again. Thankfully this time i could hear him. He apologised & etc. Turned out he fell asleep out of exhaustion and woke up by his friend's call, that's when he read my sms. He had his reasons and i accepted though i was still f-kin upset. Couldn't say much except "okay" followed by silence. That's my trademark anger convo, okay.
Well, point of the story is. That was the reason why i updated my facebook status to:
I'm not sure, this long distance sucks cock. Maybe i should not think about him all the time now and not msg him everyday (not like i could get his msgs also nowadays) so small stuff like this won't hurt as much. I know communication is key especially during long distance. But i don't want to feel so hooked on wanting to communicate every single day. *sigh* As the saying goes:
Well, I NEED to go out more. If only there were more outdoor activities for me to do and to keep my mind occupied. *Oh lord help me* Hmm, this reminds me, Benita said the cutest thing on sms on Christmas day...
Well, i'm going off to watch what i was initially supposed to do - watch "John Tucker Must Die", again... =)
Suck my cock people and go about your weary lives... Pretend to be lucky and you will be...
p/s: Call me out and Jesus will love you long time *winks*
4 comments:
go find other hobbies la... like, watching bunnies mate, roach mate.....
p/s; john tucker must die ain't that all great.... who's gonna believe ashanti a head cheerleader... pffft... akakak
You're stressing too much! Trust me, he probably wants to talk to you and everything like that. From what he tells me, I know that he thinks about you all the time! He's just a party animal and can't control himself sometimes! Forgive him because this is a small bump in the road for you guys!
On another note, I can't believe i'm actually here writing. This is like... 100% not Androo material. So to end in an "Androo" way.. well, not sure how to end it in an "Androo" way.
Man I suck at this stuff, haha.
Also, I hope we're talking about the same person because if we're not, hot damn i'll feel like an idiot.
Shai: Gurl, you know i already did that, watching bunnies mate..well, i'll skip the roaches part. Euwww, gross gross gross. I know lah it turned you on to see those two cock-roaches mate..HEHEHEHHEHEE
Androooooo: No man, we're not talking about the same person. This is my other. LOL. *ahem* keep it a secret yea. Haha, it's already an androooo trademark when you say "hot damn" and start talking alot then questioning yourself in the end if you're on the right track of the subject..Hahaha..so you..No need to worry, and yes this is just a small bump in the road...Just a teeny irritating bump that's all, a bump which i wanna squeeeze out till it pops...Grrrr.. LOL..jk
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